Not a Hate Crime

James Howard. Former movie star turned gay rights activist after his own coming out experience had inspired so many people that he decided to commit the rest of his life to helping others like him.

It had been easy for him to rise to that level, of course. He was in some of the biggest blockbusters of his generation, and his fanbase was so incredibly loyal and devoted that anyone who ever said a bad word against him was essentially eaten alive. He was always amusing in his interviews, and kind to his fans, and very down-to-earth with anybody he ever worked with. As far as the public knew he’d never actually been in a relationship, at least not since before he was famous, but his fans liked to say that he was gay anyway. And when he actually dropped the bombshell that he was, their love and devotion for him only increased.

Because LGBTQ people really are not in the minority anymore. Not in pop culture anyway. If anyone claimed to have a problem with queers, they were eaten alive almost more quickly than those who had a problem with James Howard, the beloved former movie star who is now a confirmed homosexual.

That was until Catherine Schmid arrived on the scene. Not that anyone quite remembered where she’d come from or when they started recognizing her name in the news. Because she was nobody great. She was nobody famous, or influential, or could name-drop anyone important. The only thing really memorable about her was that she was speaking out against gay people.

And that is something that the media will simply no longer tolerate. Of anyone. Especially of this no-name 22-year-old from California.

The first time she went viral, it was when she found her way in front of a TV camera at a pride parade in Los Angeles announcing that events such as these were nothing more than a protest with mob mentality, and accomplishing something by sheer force is not really changing the minds of those who disagree with you.

She was arrested on the grounds that she was terrorizing a minority group, and though she went quietly, she was asked by the same TV reporter if she saw that it was wrong to bring her propaganda to a parade that was simply celebrating a way of life.

“If I thought it was wrong I wouldn’t have done it,” she said. “How many of you at home know this is wrong but are claiming to support it anyway?”

Eventually she began popping up in enough interviews that the gay rights activists began to notice. And this led to James Howard being asked about it one day at an assembly.

“What do I think of Catherine Schmid?” he repeated. “Honestly, I feel sorry for someone who must have been brought up in such a sheltered and bigoted home that she is stuck in the ways of the past. But we don’t need to worry about the message that she’s spreading, because someone like that won’t be able to last very long.”

In Catherine’s next interview she was asked what she thought about him calling her out like that, and she replied, “Funny, because that’s what people used to say about his kinds of people and their message.”

That was when their rivalry truly began. James’ fans were so outraged that they tried to eat her alive, just as they did with everyone naysayer that came before her, and they had the help of the LGTBQ community.

But somehow, she didn’t die. She got stronger. She began to get a fanbase. There were people supporting her everywhere she turned, and she began getting access to more interviews and more exposure online. It began to be a big deal if you could get her to attend an assembly, and it began to become a bragging right if you could say Catherine Schmid had spoken in your city. James’ following couldn’t understand where the people who liked her were coming from. How could such a hateful person get so much attention and support in this day and age?

She was finally confronted about this at a panel that was being broadcasted around the world.

“Do you really think you can win this fight?” she was asked. “People like you are what’s really wrong with the world today. Our community is one of the kindest, more innocent, most peaceful and understanding groups of people that humanity has ever known, but no, just because we’re different you tell us we’re monsters, we’re disgusting, we’re not even human, we don’t–”

“Hold on,” she said. “Monsters? Disgusting? I have never said a word against anybody in your community. I don’t even use slurs, because you are still people, and I absolutely respect that. I hate your way of living, and I hate that you continue to spread it and drag others down with you, but I still love and support each and every single one of you as people.”

“Then why do attack James Howard so often?” someone from the crowd shouted.

“James Howard,” she said crisply, “Has said that he still loves and supports each and every single person as a person as well. And he seems to be fond of dragging my name through the mud every time he can, but believe me, I have no hard feelings towards him either. In fact I’d be honored to discuss this with him in person one day.”

James simply rolled his eyes when he was asked about this in his next interview. “That’s what they do,” he said. “Try to act like the bigger person. Well, Catherine, I’ve got no hard feelings towards you either. I just don’t understand what we ever did to have to endure a rival like you.”

“And what do you think of James Howard calling you his rival?” Catherine was asked the following week.

She smiled demurely. “I think it’s the nicest thing he’s ever said about me.”

For two years Catherine and James continued to spread their messages and gain more followers every day, and though no one could really see a clear winner emerging any time soon, it was fascinating to everyone, on both sides, to see how often they went head to head despite never actually meeting each other.

Until one month, when at a convention featuring the biggest influencers in the media, some coordinator somewhere decided it would be a brilliant idea to have James and Catherine on the same panel to have the debate their fans had dreamed of. Because then maybe, finally, there would be a declared victor.

Both of them shook hands politely when the panel started, and they took their opposite seats with no drama, doubtless to the crowd’s disappointment. And then the questions started.

“How do you think you two got to practically be the heads of your respective sides?” the first audience member asked.

“Oh, I definitely don’t think I’m the head of my side,” James laughed. “There’s so many other incredible activists out there that it would be super arrogant of me to even presume that title.”

“Well, I know I’m the head of mine,” Catherine said. “But that’s only because you guys helped me get there. I was your call, and you answered. You could have left me alone to spread my message, but you didn’t, because you agreed with it.”

“They don’t all agree with it,” James told her.

“Well, clearly, or you wouldn’t be here.”

The crowd laughed, and then came the next audience question. “Catherine, how can you be so against love? That’s all we as a community are–loving who we love. It’s not like we choose it or do anything about it, so why do you insist that we only love who we’re supposed to?”

“Oh my gosh, do you know how many times she’s been asked that question?” James asked. “Her answer is always the same, and it’s that you can’t romantically love anyone who is the same gender as you.”

“Well, someone’s been watching my interviews,” Catherine smiled.

“I don’t have to, I’m always told everything you say,” James replied. “But that statement is ridiculous, because if you, right now, Catherine Schmid, loved a guy, and then one day he came out as trans, would you stop loving him because now she’s a girl?”

“I’m pretty sure you’ve heard my answer to that, too,” Catherine said. “No, because he is still a guy, no matter what he now identifies as. But I turn that question back on you, who respects the changing of a person’s gender. If you liked a guy and then he came out as trans, would you stop loving him because to love him would be too heterosexual of you?”

“No,” James replied. “I’d still love the person I fell in love with. Which is why it’s helpful to be open to all genders.” He turned to the crowd and winked, and the crowd laughed again.

“James, how do you think Catherine can still have a following when her message is so blatantly wrong?”

“Well,” James said slowly, turning to look at Catherine and then immediately turning back. “I don’t know. I don’t really want to offend anyone who is watching right now, but I think that a lot of people in the world are just…wrong, and you can’t really do anything for those people if they won’t listen to what’s right.”

“And what if you’re wrong?” Catherine asked. “And you just won’t listen to what’s right?”

“I’m not wrong,” James said.

“But how do you know?”

James shrugged. “Maybe I don’t. Maybe no one does. Maybe we just have to do what we think is right.”

Catherine nodded. “I respect that.”

James turned to her. “You do?”

The crowd was deadly silent.

“Of course,” Catherine said. “We’re only human, and we really can’t possibly know, every time, what’s right and what isn’t. We just have to trust, and in my case, we listen to God…”

The crowd collectively groaned, and James groaned as well. “Catherine, we were really bonding for a moment there, but if you bring God into this, I’m really going to lose all respect for you.”

“I’m sorry, but for someone who doesn’t want to be seen as arrogant, it is pretty bigheaded to think that you get to determine what the rules are in the universe, or that you can behave however you want to behave as long as it isn’t harming anybody.”

“Of course you should! I believe one’s purpose in life is to be happy, and as long as you aren’t harming anybody, you should be able to do that in whatever way necessary.”

“And I say that by doing that and breaking the natural laws, you are harming God, and that is somebody!”

“Catherine, there’s no proof that God even exists, and if He does, I think He’d be on my side here! You know, with the whole love thy neighbor thing?”

“Yes!” Catherine cried. “Love is love is love, as you like to say, and I fully support you loving another male with your entire heart and soul and mind, but to turn that into romantic love? That is both unnatural and unnecessary. The point of marriage is to bring new life into the world, not to just sign a piece of paper for your own pleasure!”

“The point of marriage is to commit your life to someone you never want to be without!”

“Then why is the divorce rate so high?”

“Catherine, let’s not turn this into a political debate about divorce. It’s both legal and natural, and you can’t change that.”

“So is homosexuality in most places, and here’s me succeeding in changing that.”

“Succeeding?”

“Okay!” The moderator finally said, stepping in. “We’re definitely in it for the long haul, people, but unfortunately I’m being told that it’s time to take a commercial break, so we’ll be right back.” He smiled at the camera, and then looked at the crowd. “These two are gonna go backstage for a quick water break, but don’t go anywhere!” He then practically shoved Catherine and James off the stage and glared at them. “Both of your agents are trusting me not to let things get out of hand, so please try not to strangle each other or kill your brands. Please.”

Catherine smirked and headed off towards the restroom. James just sighed and turned away, only to see his assistant rushing towards him.

“Look what I found!” she crowed.

“Audrey, you can’t just go around stealing women’s purses,” James said, rolling his eyes.

“It’s Catherine’s purse. So I was thinking we could find some dirt on her, and…”

“No,” James said, shaking his head. “In a long list of very bad ideas you’ve had, this kind of tops it. Supposing you actually found something, how would you even be able to leak it without saying how you found it?”

“No one cares about that, all you’d have to do is mention it onstage to see if she gets flustered, and then she’ll be questioned and it won’t matter how you knew.” Audrey reached in and pulled out a wallet. “I’m just gonna look real quick.”

“Audrey, if you have to blackmail someone into losing, then…” James started, but was cut off by Audrey gasping and pulling a photo out of the wallet.

“Woah,” she said. “I didn’t expect to actually find anything.” She held the picture up, and James just stared in horror and wrinkled his forehead in confusion.

“I thought you’d never met?” Audrey asked.

“Put it back,” James said quickly. “Now, Audrey!”

And she did, just as Catherine reappeared and the two were ushered into the wings, ready to go onstage again.

But just before they were about to step out, the power went out. James and Catherine could see the emergency lights in the backstage area slowly flicker to life, and they could hear some of the audience members scream.

“Please stay where you are,” came a voice over the loudspeaker. “The power will be restored shortly.”

James turned to Catherine, who had pulled her phone out and glanced at it before slipping it in her pocket again.

“Have we met before?” he suddenly asked.

Catherine ran her fingers through her hair and stared straight ahead. “You know the reason this panel is such a huge deal is because we’ve never met, right?”

“I don’t play dirty,” James said. “Ever. So that’s why I’m going to tell you that my assistant may have, without my consent, rooted through your wallet and found…your picture of us.”

Catherine instantly froze and stopped fiddling with her hair. “Oh,” she said. “Really.”

“I apologize for my assistant,” James said. “And obviously I’m not…going to say anything about it, but I…”

“But now you’re curious about it,” Catherine said. “Do you know where it was taken?”

James swallowed. “At my final movie premiere before I came out.”

She gave a brief nod. “The day I met you was the greatest day of my life.”

“I had no idea you were a fan.”

She snorted. “Why, because you think I grew up in a sheltered bigoted home?” she asked. “Well, you’re correct, and my family was very conservative, and Catholic, and overprotective, though I don’t think the word ‘bigotry’ can be applied to us. But I’ve been out of that environment for several years now, and even when I was in it, I still managed to be a fan of you. For probably the same reason as a lot of people. Because I related to your stories of depression and social anxiety and panic attacks. Because I also struggled with knowing what I wanted to do in life, and I also had to go through the awkward conversations of being a college dropout. You’ve shared a lot about your past over the years, James, and there is very little public information about you that I don’t know and remember and treasure. You were my hero, my idol, my North Star, and you shared a lot of my same interests and opinions, and I felt so connected to you that by the time I won that meetup lottery to have a picture with you on the red carpet, I was at a point where I felt like there was nothing I wouldn’t do for you if it was in my power.”

She paused for breath and then gave a wry smile. “And I am aware of how obsessed that sounds, and again, I am aware that that’s not a unique feeling and most of your fans feel the same,” she said. “The difference between me and them is that when you came out it was like you were a genie granting their wish, but you were stabbing me in the back. I cried…a lot during those several weeks. And I expected all my love for you to turn into hatred, because there are lots of other celebritites that I’ve stopping being a fan of once I found out they were gay. But not you…not you. I cared for you so much that even betraying me couldn’t change that.” She winced and glanced at him. “Sorry.”

“Sorry for what?”

“For belittling your beliefs.”

“It’s fine, I mean you’ve only been trying to undermine my cause for the past two and a half years.”

She tried to laugh, but it came out almost like a sob. “Yeah. But that’s because of you too, you know. I don’t know why that was my reaction. Maybe it was kind of a supervillain impulse, like, if I can’t have you then I’ll destroy you type of thing, but that was never my intention. If anything, I think you were just inspiring me to go out and pour my energy into a cause I’m passionate about. Because that’s what you were doing, and I never was so passionate about destroying homosexuality until I knew you were a part of it.” She paused again. “It sounds worse than it is.”

“But what was your aim in doing it? If you think I’m going to change my mind, or my beliefs, or stop doing what I’m doing, then that’s not gonna happen.”

“No, yeah, I was always aware of that. And then when we started being…rivals, I knew that the person who saved my life was going to hate me more than anyone else, but, again, this is something I’m passionate about. And I think…I mean I get why your kind feels the need to express itself. You feel broken, or like you’re missing something, or that you’ve been cast out or abandoned by the universe, and you feel the need to take control of something just to feel like you are in control, and it kills me to see the entirety of your community in that much pain, but…you can’t go against the natural law, James, you just can’t.”

“I disagree.”

“Yeah, I got that.” She attempted another laugh as she ran her fingers through her hair, and was more successful this time.

“But,” he said slowly. “I am glad to know that you’re…not a hate crime. Because you do actually love people like us. You just don’t want them to fall, which is what you think they’re doing.”

She looked at him in surprise. “Wow, I…didn’t think you’d actually see it that way.”

“Well,” he said. “I admit that I have said some strong things against straight people, and that’s heterophobic of me. Kind of.”

She giggled. “You do make it sound like everyone needs to be a part of your community.”

“I know, but I don’t actually think that. I just think they should be able to if they want to.”

She nodded. “I disagree.”

“Why though? Why can’t you just let them make their own decisions, and you make yours?”

“First of all because they, like you, get so caught up in their cause that they make us straight people afraid to voice our opinions. And because heterophobia is just as much a problem as homophobia. And also because it’s just blatantly wrong. You know it’s one of the four sins that cry out to Heaven for vengeance?”

“What are the other three?”

She swatted his arm. “James, I know you don’t believe in all that religious stuff, but be glad I’m not Preachy McPreacher and just let me make allusions to my religion once in a while.”

“Okay, but you think you’re right and I don’t, and I think the same thing, so why can’t we all just practice our own beliefs and see whose correct when we die?”

It was very dark backstage, but the tears that filled Catherine’s eyes were still visible. “Because if you’re wrong then you’re damned for eternity, and I won’t be able to endure eternity if I know that.”

“But what if you’re wrong?”

“Then I agree that your idea of coexistence would be nice if it could actually work,” Catherine said. “If everyone could be comfortable with everyone’s different beliefs, and not rub our own practices in everyone’s face.”

“But you Catholics have your own processions and pilgrimages and stuff. What’s the difference between that and a Pride parade?”

Catherine looked up at him and rubbed her damp eyes with the heel of her hand. “You know I got arrested at a Pride parade once?”

“Yeah, because you were considered a threat.”

“Nope,” she said. “The guy who arrested me actually agreed with me. He said he was taking me away to save me from getting mobbed and beaten up.”

“And so what, you’re saying at a pilgrimage a gay rights activist would be safe from being jumped?”

“Yep.”

The power came back on in that moment, and James sighed. “I feel like the rest of this debate is kinda redundant now,” he said.

“Yeah, I mean I think we’ve gone as far as we can go with each other just in the last five minutes.”

He nodded. “I think the problem is we’re both too smart,” he said. “There have been points raised to me in the past that I couldn’t answer convincingly, and I know the same is true of you.”

She nodded. “I don’t claim to know everything,” she said. “Or to understand everything. And I’ve always been unbelievably proud of your resolve to do the right thing. It just breaks my heart that you can’t see what the right thing is.”

He smirked. “And I’m happy to have inspired and encouraged you to try to do something meaningful with your life,” he said. “Though I do find it kind of ironic that you are a rival of my own creation.”

“I don’t hate the gay community,” she said. “And I certainly still look up to you.”

“I know,” he said. “Though I will continue ti undermine you every time I can.”

“You can try,” she smiled, and held her hand out to him. “Maybe one of us will be proven wrong in our lifetimes. That would be nice.”

He ignored her hand and instead hugged her. “Well if it’s me, I promise to be a gracious loser,” he said.

“I know you will,” she said. “And I’ll try to be a gracious winner.”

“Wow. You’re already failing, you know.”

They heard the moderator again announcing their return, and looked at each other.

“Ready to get through the rest of this?” James asked.

She smiled. “Anything you can get through, I can get through too.”

 

 

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The Phineas and Ferb Music Game!

This post is mostly for me, because I thought it would be fun to do, but if you like Phineas and Ferb, read on!Candace and Bros.png

Okay, so apparantly the rules are that you put your music on shuffle, and then answer these questions with the song that comes up. I don’t really listen to a lot of playlists that aren’t Phineas and Ferb, so that’s why I’m doing it exclusively with those songs. Here we go!

Questions:

1. What Is Your Motto?

Curtain Call/Time Spent Together (Last Day of Summer, Season 4). Okay, seriously??? THAT emotional song, right off the bat?? But it is true, actually, I think time spent with the people you love is more important than what you do with them.

2. What Do Your Friends Think Of You?

O.W.C.A.’s Going Down (Phineas and Ferb Save Summer, Season 4). Ouch. Love you guys, too!

3. What Do You Think About Very Often?

Waggle Dance (Bee Story, Season 4). Well, not THAT one in particular, but I do think about dancing a lot, yes.

4. What Is 22?

Platypus Walk (No episode in particular). Well, if you say so. I’m not about to argue with fate.

5. What Do You Think Of Your Best Friend?

Y.M.C.A which is really O.W.C.A. (No episode). I literally don’t know how to interpret this. I guess I think she’s fun? That would be true.

6. What Do You Think About The Person You Like?

Brand New Reality (Phineas and Ferb: Across the 2nd Dimension). If this means I would find someone new every time I got tired of the old one, I don’t believe that’s accurate.

7. What Is Your Life Story?

Summer (Phineas and Ferb: Across the 2nd Dimension). Aww, that’s super sweet! I don’t know if it’s true, but I’d like to think it is.

8. What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?

Triangulation (Night of the Living Pharmacists, Season 4). Haha, that’s hilarious! I guess if I looked like Phineas, I would be okay with that. I would also be okay with being written into a cartoon.

9. What Do You Think When You See The Person You Like?

Ferb Latin (Ferb Latin, Season 3). If this means I think backwards and incoherently when I see him, that would be true.

10. What Do Your Parents Think Of You?

An Army of Me (Night of the Living Pharmacists, Season 4). My parents think they have an army, or they think I have an army? Neither is true, by the way.

11. What Will You Dance To At Your Wedding?

Today is Gonna Be a Great Day (Theme song). 1000% accurate.

12. What Will They Play At Your Funeral? 

Little Brothers (Phineas and Ferb Get Busted!, Season 1). Oh my gosh, I’m seriously crying at the thought. Who rigged this shuffle to make it crazy accurate????

13. What Is Your Hobby/Interest?

What Is this Thing? (Blackout!, Season 3). Weeeeeell my hobby is acting, and I guess every sentiment expressed in this song is felt in acting at some point. Can you see how badly I’m trying to make these songs to fit?

14. What Is Your Biggest Secret?

There’s No One I’d Rather Go Nowhere With (Last Day of Summer, Season 4). Depending on who I’m thinking of, yeah, that probably would be my biggest secret.

15. What Do You Think Of Your Friends?

Chains on Me (Phineas and Ferb Get Busted!, Season 1). Okay, as bad as it sounds…this is painfully true. It’s not that I don’t love my friends, it’s just that the introvert in me dreads having to spend any time with them.

16. What Is The Worst Thing That Could Happen?

Funhouse (Misperceived Monotreme, Season 3). Seeing as how this song is about living in a funhouse, it’s not wrong.

17. How Will You Die?

Summer All over the World (Phineas and Ferb Save Summer, Season 4). Well I mean yeah, if a meteor hits or the sun crashes into the earth or something.

18. What Is The One Thing You Will Regret?

Dance Baby (Candace Disconnected, Season 3). Only when I do it so much I feel like I might throw up. Or pass out. Or do both simultaneously.

19. What Makes You Laugh?

O.W.C.A. Files (The O.W.C.A Files, Season 4ish). The song does. The episode, not as much as the real show did.

20. What Makes You Cry?

Evil for Extra Credit (Where’s Perry?, Season 3). It doesn’t, I swear! I love this song, I think it’s great how Carl got the spotlight here, and it’s hilarious how his ulterior motive is just to get college credit! What’s to cry about, except from laughter?

21. Will You Ever Get Married?

Welcome to Tokyo (Summer Belongs to You, Season 2). Enough said.

22. What Scares You The Most?

Gotta Get Back in Time (Last Day of Summer, Season 4). Actually, any story messing with time AT ALL used to scare the heck out of me. Now I adore those kinds of stories, but running late still does stress me out more than it should.

23. Does Anyone Like You?

Phinedroids and Ferbots (I Brobot, Season 1). Well, I guess I’ll always have robots. Sigh.

24. If You Could Go Back In Time, What Would You Change?

Busted (I Scream, You Scream, Season 1). Nah, there actually isn’t anyone I would go back and get in trouble if I could. Wait, wait, I suddenly remembered Tauriel. Yeah, I’d go back and make sure she was never created.

25. What Hurts Right Now?

When Tomorrow is this Morning Again (Last Day of Summer, Season 4). It only hurts beacuse that episode filled me with so many emotions I thought I might explode, and I still limit the number of times I’m allowed to listen to this song for the same reason. But I love this song, and I love singing it, and I love everything about it! “If I get it wrong this afternoon, I’ll get it right today when tomorrow is this morning again!”

And that’s it! Thank you for coming along!

 

Ranking the New Doctor Who Episodes

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Well, I resisted the fandom for years and years and years, despite my father being a classic Doctor Who fan, and my brother and several close friends being fans of the new Doctor Who. But I finally took it in my head to watch one day, and now I’m so obsessed that ranking every episode of the new series (because can you imagine how long it would take to do the classics??) seems like a brilliant way to spend an afternoon. And now I impose my opinions upon you. Enjoy all 131 episodes (until Season 10 starts this Saturday) ranked, from least to greatest, taking into account story, monster, acting, and my professional opinion. Obviously there will be spoilers of some sort, somewhere.

131. Love and Monsters, Season 2
Yeah, no, this virtually had nothing redeeming about it. The Abzorbaloff was the most revolting thing I’ve ever seen, the Jackie/Elton storyline was sickening, and the Doctor was barely in it. Bottom of the list, yo!The only good bit of Love and Monsters.png

130. Flatline, Season 8
Season 8 was pretty much bad all the way through, and no, that’s NOT just because I was grieving for Matt Smith. But the monsters in this episode were creepy to a point where I will probably never intentionally watch it again.

129. The Unquiet Dead, Season 1
Maybe my religion has something to do with it, but I try to avoid things that have seances, and I was extremely displeased with the Doctor wanting to put souls of another species into our dead bodies.

128. Last Christmas, Season 8
Sometimes the Christmas special seems to be the end of a season, and sometimes it seems to be at the beginning. This feels like an “at the end” one though, because it was wrapping up the horrors of Season 8. I bought it for a while, but when it became a dream within about 15 other dreams, I stopped believing in it.

127. Sleep No More, Season 9
Sigh. And Season 9 was so good other than this one. Actually, I thought it was interesting overall, but then it got weirder than it needed to…and more confusing than it needed to…and basically I was glad when it was over.

126. Death in Heaven, Season 8
Yeah, you’ll see a lot of Season 8 in these lower episodes. I really hated Season 8. My brother tells me I overthink this show too much, and what I thought about this episode was that somewhere, from the grave of Amy and Rory, two cybermen were rising, and my heart was crushed anew.

125. Dark Water, Season 8
The only good thing about this episode, other than Danny Pink dying because I HATED that man, was the Doctor’s line “Do you think I care for you so little that betraying me would make a difference?” Best. Saying. Ever.

124. The Rebel Flesh, Season 6
Well, the whole thing about the flesh was rather disgusting, but I did love how protective Rory was of Jennifer. But he did NOT love her, whatever anyone else says.

123. The Almost People, Season 6
Aww, two Doctors bouncing off each other are always adorable. The flesh is still disgusting, and poor Amy, oh, poor poor Amy!

122. Kill the Moon, Season 8
NO. This episode had an interesting concept of the moon being an egg, but it was also pretty ridiculous. And they decided to let the creature live and risk everyone on earth. And the Doctor abandoned Clara, and in response to that she gave him the most frustrating telling-off, and announced she was leaving him. The episode just made me mad at everyone involved.

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Mostly I was still getting used to Peter Capaldi here, and he was still basically a really harsh, unfeeling old man. I don’t like a Doctor that can’t be emotional until his second and third seasons.

120. Listen, Season 8
Right, because we needed more Danny Pink. No, actually, this episode was all right, and my heart went out to that little Time Lord who was a lonely angel even when he was surrounded by others like him.

119. Deep Breath, Season 8
Oh my gosh, see, I’d seen a lot of clips of all four of the new Doctors before I started watching the show in full, and I knew I’d like Peter Capaldi. So how come when he finally showed up he was harsh and unemotional, and didn’t remember Clara or Madame de Pompadour? The only thing I liked (well, loved) about this episode was Eleven’s phone call at the end. Back when the Doctor was thinking about Clara’s feelings, and that she might need to hear his voice again.

118. Hide, Season 7
The Doctor said empathics are the most sympathetic people in the world, which flattered me to hear from him, being an empathic myself. I loved his bouncing off Clara in this episode, too, since he and I both were still getting over Manhattan.

117. The Girl Who Waited, Season 6
Ohh, this episode was so depressing. And, also, frankly, a little unnecessary, except maybe to again prove Rory’s devotion to any version of Amy that breathes. And, I was wrong, his “I don’t care that you got old. I care that we didn’t grow old together,” is the best saying ever.

116. The Lazarus Experiment, Season 3
Sheesh, talk about looking good for your age. He doesn’t, by the way, he looks like a creepy insect monster with a human face that hits on younger girls and then eats them. And when you thought he was dead, psych! Also, in addition to really disliking Martha, I thought her mother was pretty annoying as well.

115. The Woman Who Lived, Season 9
Ashildir really was nothing but trouble for the Doctor ever since he met her, though that’s not how he would put it. Still, it was interesting to see how she dealt with immortality. And I loved at the beginning how oblivious the Doctor was that he was disrupting a robbery!

114. A Christmas Carol, Season 5
Well, I did think it was a little akward for Abigail to stay the same age while a little boy grew up in front of her, and then inevitably fall in love with him when he hit puberty, only to not see him again until he was about 60 years older. But otherwise it’s a very beautiful story, with a very beautiful song at the end.

113. World War Three, Season 1
Can we all just agree that the Slitheen are messed up? And that they’re painful to watch, and to listen to? I wanted to like Harriet Jones, truly, but this and Aliens in London are the only ones where I can.

112. Boom Town, Season 1
Guess what? More Slitheen! Seriously though, how convenient was it that that one survived, and that no one recognized her from last time? I’ll admit that I was deathly afraid of the Doctor letting her go, after watching that dinner they had together.

111. The Long Game, Season 1
Oh, you’ll also see a lot of Season 1 in these lower episodes, because 1 and 8 I thought were the weakest. The Long Game had some good bits in the Doctor’s sass, and the calmess of the villain, but I don’t like things being put in people’s heads.

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110. Aliens in London, Season 1
I suppose “Raxacoricofallapatorious,” is fun to say, if you are going to have Slitheen. I squirmed at seeing Rose try to explain to her mother where she’d been for a whole year, because really, what do you say? Especially if you plan to go off again, and with the same guy!

109. The Waters of Mars, Season 4
Well, I did not care for those zombie things. But I liked Adelaide, I liked the Doctor finally deciding to mess with history and realizing this is why he needs someone to travel with him, and I liked that Mia survived. Why? Because I liked her as Soo Lin Yao in Sherlock, and hated that she had to die. I could see them all being picked off in this episode, but I really wanted her to live this time.

108. Cold War, Season 7
Haha, the Doctor though, landing the TARDIS in the midst of a sinking Russian submarine during the Cold War, stepping out, and crying “Vive Las Vegas!” I also liked how when Clara came back from speaking alone with the creature, he told her she’d done well, because that was important for her to hear.

107. Night Terrors, Season 6
I liked this one, actually, creepy though it was. Because I love the Eleventh Doctor, and the Tenth too, really, interacting with children. They’re just always so understanding, and like they’re more in their comfort zone with them than with anyone else.

106. The Hungry Earth, Season 5
Okay, so maybe I would have been a little more interested in watching this episode again if I wasn’t bored by all things underground. Gotta say though, I fall in love with Rory the more I watch him. I think he speaks my language.

105. Cold Blood, Season 5
Nooooo not Rory!! So much for falling in love. All he wanted was to marry his girl and live a quiet simple life where they could raise a family. But nooo, he had to go off with an alien and get sucked into a crack and out of existence.

104. Daleks of Manhattan, Season 3
I love being an actress and all, but I don’t think I would have loved it during the Great Depression. The actresses were so empty-headed back then! And yes, that is what I took away from this episode.

103. Evolution of the Daleks, Season 3
Hey look, it’s Spiderman running away from pig-men! Oh, and also the Doctor letting himself be electrocuted on top of the Empire State Building…and the Daleks turning a human into one of them, sorta…and a pig and a showgirl trying to have a relationship.

102. A Town Called Mercy, Season 7
One of the most exciting things about Doctor Who, I think, is seeing him and his companions travel to different times and cultures on earth, and adapting to them. The Doctor just stepped into that cowboy role so easily, gun and all!

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101. The Vampires of Venice, Season 5
“Stop talking, brain thinking, hush.” Well, the villains were more annoying than normal in this episode, I thought. And poor Rory had the hardest time, what with hearing the Doctor had kissed his fiance the night before his wedding, then being whisked off to Venice, then being attacked by vampires while watching how much Amy and the Doctor clicked. Poor guy.

100. The Wedding of River Song, Season 6
Okay, I think we’ve ruled out all the ones I don’t like now! Seriously, anything before this is just embarassing. Can you imagine saying you weren’t even in the top 100? This episode is so low because I loved it, and the season, up until the very end when we see that River kissed and married a robot, and so all the emotion that robot had done up to that point was, well, robotic. I was disappointed, and thought that was lazy writing to save the Doctor that way. So I’m in denial of the fact now, and love this episode otherwise.

99. The Pandorica Opens, Season 5
Yay for Rory coming back, yaaaaaay. And oh my gosh, I love the Doctor’s moment of realization on this. “Rory, I’m not trying to be rude, but you died.” “Yeah, I know. I was there.” And the famous Pandorica speech that everyone loves, me included, oh! Why was this episode not higher? Right, because something had to go here, and it wasn’t going to be anything after this.

98. The Shakespeare Code, Season 3
I thought Martha was awfully selfish and unfeeling to be jealous of Rose, so every oblivious snub the Doctor made towards her here was applauded by me. And where else can you see Shakespeare casting a Harry Potter spell??

97. In the Forest of the Night, Season 8
Again, children. In Doctor Who. Hardly ever is it a mistake, unless you bring whole classes along. But I was thinking of the special one, Maebh. Whom the Doctor is protective of, and who understands more than anyone thinks she does.

96. Victory of the Daleks, Season 5
I love World War II movies, so I was happy to see a Doctor Who episode set there! And Daleks never worry me, because they’ll always be defeated without taking too many lives, and I just can’t take them seriously.

95. Gridlock, Season 3
I may hate Martha, but I love seeing the Doctor react so emotionally to this person he hardly knows yet being ripped away from him. It is quite depressing to see the lives people lived in those cars, though.

94. The Unicorn and the Wasp, Season 4
That detox scene was one of the greatest moments in a simpler episode! I thought the whole mystery set up was all a little overexaggerted, but I think they did that on purpose, and it made it funnier.

93. The Idiot’s Lantern, Season 2
Creepy, creepy creepy to see people with no faces, but I loved it anyway. The wire was annoying, but I loved the Doctor and Rose blending into the 50s, I loved how upset he got when she was taken, and I loved, well, everything!

92. Journey to the Centre of the TARDIS, Season 7
Heh heh, “center” is spelled all Britishy. I think this episode might have been a bust if it hadn’t had some really good bonding moments between the Doctor and Clara. He threatened everyone else’s life if they didn’t help him find her, too!

91. Time Heist, Season 8
This one was super interesting, and creepy, too. I mean, it’s Doctor Who, it’s supposeTime Heist.pngd to be creepy, but sometimes it is and sometimes it isn’t. I would just like to point out though, that I knew the Doctor was the Architect the whole time. Yeah.

90. The Zygon Invasion, Season 9
AKA the first one in this two parter. I’ve decided that Kate, to me, overestimates herself, and Osgood underestimates herself. For that reason I’m quite fond of the latter and don’t really care for the former.

89. The Zygon Inversion, Season 9
The second one. I love that the Doctor’s motivational speech came back, and I love Clara for being smart enough to work through a Zygon. And Osgood with all her Doctor cosplaying!

88. The Satan Pit, Season 2
The Doctor was the only one happier than I when he bumped into his TARDIS way down there. And then he saved Rose, and then it turned out he had also saved Ida! That was a great ending.

87. The Impossible Planet, Season 2
I pretty much always like the Ood, even when they’re evil. There’s just something so adorable and piteable about them. What actually creeps me out though, is when those markings just appear on Toby. Shudder.

86. Rose, Season 1
Ah, the one that started it all. Pity it couldn’t be higher, but you know, there are better Doctors, companions, and stories ahead. Not that I didn’t love all three in this one. It was a pretty good re-introduction to something that had been off the air for 16 years.

85. The Sontaran Strategm, Season 3
Sontarans are so dumb! But Wilf is adorable, and Donna asking for a salute is amusing, and Martha and Donna getting along is very refreshing. But WHAAT is that body growing in the goop, that’s disgusting!

84. The Poison Sky, Season 3
Ah, it’s a Martha clone. And the Doctor can tell right away and works on finding the real one, which is brilliant. And he completely trusts Donna to save the day, and he makes a callback to The Empty Child, and Luke saves him and then both his companions hang on his arms!

83. 42, Season 3
Feels pretty much like The Impossible Planet episodes, except that there’s a sense of urgency the entire time because of the countdown, which it always good. And the Doctor gets so scared in this episode, but is as brave as ever!

82. The Doctor, the Widow, and the Wardrobe, Season 6
The Doctor and children, once again. So loved that, and was pretty much laughing the whole time in the beginning when he had his helmet on backwards, but was carrying on anyway. And oh, that moment at the end when he went to the Ponds’ for Christmas dinner, and found a place already set for him, though he’d been gone two years!

81. The Caretaker, Season 8
I started to wThe Caretaker.pngarm up to Twelve in this episode, but just a little bit. Because he was acting like he didn’t notice or care whether Clara was with him or not, but clearly he wasn’t easy about letting her out of his sight, either.

80. Tooth and Claw, Season 2
The first time watching this, I didn’t know David Tennant was using his real Scottish accent, and I was very impressed by it. Later, when I did find out, I was just impressed at his English accent!

79. The Empty Child, Season 1
Ugh, Captain Jack. I hate Captain Jack. I almost want to be introduced to him, just so he can feel the unfamiliar shock of someone not falling for him. On a different note, even this Doctor is sympathetic to children!

78. The Doctor Dances, Season 1
I was pleased with the Doctor for being so eager to have everybody live. Unfortunately for me though, that included Jack. However, I thought the Doctor and Rose dancing and the end was a very beautiful moment.

77. The End of the World, Season 1
Introduced here are some important characters who come back later, and we also learn a bit more about the Doctor’s past. Poor Doctor. I never really consider Eccleston as the Doctor, but that doesn’t mean my heart didn’t still go out to his portrayal.

76. Fear Her, Season 2
I love it when the Doctor mentions his previous parenthood. Especially when it’s offhand and never followed up on. I also love how gentle and understanding he was to both Chloe and the creature inside her.

75. Last of the Time Lords, Season 3
I don’t deny that Martha did a very good job at saving the Doctor, the world, and her family in this episode. But that doesn’t mean I still don’t cringe a little at a whole episode mostly focused on her. I also don’t like that little goblin thing the Doctor turns into. But I do like how easily the Doctor took Martha’s departure, and didn’t apologize for not loving her. I know, I know, I’m being really harsh on her, but you’ll all remember she’s just a character. I say that of course, but my heart broke for the Doctor as I watched him mourn for a man who had done terrible things to him and his friends, just because he had lost the only other Time Lord in the world.

74. Mummy on the Orient Express, Season 8
Fascinating, this one. A creature only those marked for death can see?? And the clever Doctor figured out how it worked, and put himself in the firing line just so he could see it! This is also the crucial episode where Clara decided she could never give the Doctor up.

73. Utopia, Season 3
“Hermits united. We meet up every ten years and swap stories about caves. It’s good fun, for a hermit.” Best line in this episode. Although I also love when the Doctor says hello and waves at Martha twice with his re-grown hand.

72. The Time of Angels, Season 5
OH my gosh, that angel coming out of the screen towards Amy though!! That was so startling the first time I saw it! And I loved that whole beginning scene with River sending the Doctor a message years into the future, and yet he still showed up on time.

71. Face the Raven, Season 9
I must confess that I knew beforehand that Clara was to die in this episode. So instead of the good sense of urgency I should have felt when she took the countdown upon herself, I just felt sick. Gosh darn it Ashildir, who said you could play with death like that?!

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70. The God Complex, Season 6
This one was very interesting to watch. It was really a brilliant idea to have your hotel room hold your greatest fear. And that end scene with the Doctor giving his beloved Ponds a nice house and car and reluctantly but insistently leaving gets me every time. Every time.

69. The Sound of Drums, Season 6
This master is so fascinating to watch! I love his wife too, because I feel so sorry for her. And the Doctor is called that because he wants to make people better, aww! Also, pretty sure there’s a perception filter built into me somewhere.

68. The Lodger, Season 5
This episode is pretty much comedy from beginning to end. It does have James Corden, after all. But the comedy is actually coming pretty much all from the Doctor’s attempts to fit in a normal household…and we know that could never happen.

67. Closing Time, Season 6
Or “The Lodger 2.” Still comedic, but this time there are Cyberman and a baby involved, as well as the Doctor carrying around this weight of knowing he’s to die the next day. So I actually think the sequel is better than the original in this case. Just a bit.

66. The Beast Below, Season 5
I just love the super interesting ones that you could never have predicted. This is one such episode. I love how the Doctor never interferes unless there are children crying, I love his and Amy’s “gotcha” hug at the end, and I love “It’s a tongue! A great big tongue!”

65. Flesh and Stone, Season 5
The Doctor doesn’t know either River or Amy too well yet, but he knows them well enough to see they’re worth feeding himself to a crack in the universe to save them. And I love that moment where the (future!) Doctor tells Amy to trust him.

64. Planet of the Dead, Season 4
Didn’t care much for Christina, for some reason, but I did love the Doctor’s banter with her. And how he turned his brainy specs into sunglasses with a sonic screwdriver, just to look as cool as her!

63. Rise of the Cybermen, Season 2
Cybermen are still something I shudder at, because no matter how many times I see them, I still know they used to be real people, with real emotions. But I did love in this episode how the Doctor couldn’t bear to keep Rose away from her father.

62. Before the Flood, Season 9
This one was very creepy, but Twelve had gotten to a point where he could ease the tension just by speaking. He still struggled socially however, as is seen by his need to have sympathy cards, and yet still botching the gesture.

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61. School Reunion, Season 2
I know I’m going to get backlash from Whovians by saying I really despise Sarah Jane. Is there anyone I do like? they ask. Yes! I LOVE Amy and Rory and Donna and Rose and Clara and Astrid and Wilf and the Doctor and River and Craig and many others. I also like how the Doctor teaches physics.

60. The Girl Who Died, Season 9
The infamous Ashildir comes into play, and has to go and throw her town into certain ruin because she’s a proud Viking. And yet I love this episode because the Doctor voluntarily hugs Clara, remembers Donna and Pompeii and being Ten, and has the cutest names for the Vikings.

59. Under the Lake, Season 9
I knew it was the Doctor in the box, guys. Not the whole time, but long before it was revealed. I loved how he knew exactly when to get his act together as well, because Clara was going to be the next to die. And the Bootstrap Paradox theme here was really cool!

58. The Age of Steel, Season 2
Creepy, pitiable cybermen. And yet I keep going to that scene where the Doctor opens up the Cyberman and speaks to her for a minute, learning that she was to be married. He accidentely broke her inhibiter, and so he just put his screwdriver into her crontoller thing and said quietly, “you just sleep now, Sunny. Go to sleep.” He NEVER kills; I don’t even think he’d approve of euthanasia, but he knew at that moment she was already dead, and the only thing he could do was stop her pain. That is NOT the same thing as euthanasia, by the way.

57. Dalek, Season 1
Never thought I’d tear up over a Dalek. But this one just seemed so sad and lonely. It was only killing because it had nothing else in life, but it even got tired of that, and just wanted to feel the sun on its face. Wow. Cuttin’ deep, man.

56. Planet of the Ood, Season 4
As if Donna hadn’t proved already that she could be sympathetic to others. I already loved the Ood, but they just became so much more adorable to me when I learned their history and real nature.

55. The Crimson Horror, Season 7
Yeah, I don’t like Vastra either. But I do think Jenny is pretty great, and the Doctor seems to as well, kissing her and what not. He and Clara have definitely become inseperable by this episode, too. And even though Ada is blind and deformed and locked him in a cage, he still does everything he can to protect and comfort her!

54. Robot of Sherwood, Season 8
To this one I say YES. I loved Robin Hood in this, and how he and the Doctor were constantly trying to impress Clara, who was fangirling over the Merry Men until she had to step up and be the mature one.

53. The Curse of the Black Spot, Season 6
Okay, so I just really love pirates, and this one was as Piratey as Piratey can be. I loved it all, the music, Amy’s outfit, the siren, the storm on the ship. Oh, and Rory trusting Amy to save his life of course!!

52. Asylum of the Daleks, Season 7
Hello Clara! And hello–Pond divorce papers? I was quite upset about that, until I saw the Doctor was on the case. And being the clever man he is, he did manage to get them to admit that they still loved each other. Whew.

51. The Rings of Akhaten, Season 7
I mean, have you seen how gorgeous this episode is? Or at least heard the gorgeous song in it? Or felt all the gorgeous feels when the Doctor stood up tRings of Akhaten.pngo the god, and then Clara swooped in when he was worn out and finished the job?

50. Amy’s Choice, Season 5
Not quite sure what is so special to me about this episode, but I keep going back to it. Maybe I just love seeing how much both boys care about Amy, and yet the Doctor doesn’t want her romantically, and will die with her in the hopes of her seeing her beloved Rory again.

49. The Return of Doctor Mysterio, Season…well, I’m gonna say 9 to avoid awkwardness.
This had a pretty cute story, if you can get past the aliens opening their heads. And I found myself liking Nardole much more than I expected. But honestly, the Grant and Lucy story was really adorable, despite basically being the story of Lois and Clark.

48. The Snowmen, Season 7
Have you noticed how many episodes start with “the” ? I didn’t love this episode at first because I was still hurting for Amy and Rory, but then I saw the Doctor was too, and he saw a glimmer of hope in Clara. Like maybe she was the key to him not hurting anymore. When he put his bow tie back on and showed her the TARDIS, that’s when he and I both knew we were going to be fine.

47. Bad Wolf, Season 1
Honesty time: I started with this episode when I was going through the series, and then went back and filled in the blanks. And I was immediately taken in by the disorientation the three characters felt of being inexplicably and suddenly on deathly game shows.

46. Heaven Sent, Season 9
My, this episode was discouraging. And not really riveting until the end when you found out what it was all about. But my goodness, that ending was incredible! Although–isn’t the oringial Doctor dead now? Isn’t that a clone of him walking around now?

45. Forest of the Dead, Season 4
I actually wanted this to be lower, because the Vashta Nerada and Miss Evangelista’s distorted face creep the HECK out of me. But I have to admit that it is a very clever episode, and I have watched River’s death more times than any other character.

44. Midnight, Season 4
Everyone else is terrified by this episode, but I can’t get enough of it. Maybe I just like psychological problems. And I was fasinated by Sky repeating everyone’s lines, and then doing it in synch, and then leaving the poor Doctor struck with the same affliction.

43. Dinosaurs on a Spaceship, Season 7
I want a Brian in my life. Because he obeys orders without question, and all he wants with the TARDIS is to sit and overlook the earth and eat a sandwhich. Why does that make me cry? Also, the Doctor has a Christmas list. Enough said.

42. The Bells of Saint John, Season 7
This episode was creepy, but also great for the Doctor’s emotional health. Because now that he’d found Clara again, he was tripping over himself to protect her.

41. Hell Bent, Season 9
Clara is dead, right? Because if so, the Doctor should have just left her where she was and he could have kept the memory of her. I didn’t understand certain parts of this episode, but I thought it was very cleverly written all the same. WHAT a finale.

40. Silence in the Library, Season 4
Again, the Vashta Nerada make me fear for my life, but I love any interaction with River and the Doctor. And it’s still a pretty spectacular story idea.

39. Parting of the Ways, Season 1
David Tennant’s first appearance! I went back and watched that scene again the first time I watched “the End of Time,” because I just needed to see him with all three shining seasons ahead of him. Can you imagine those who were watching and didn’t know how fabulous he was going to become?

38. The Next Doctor, Season 4
Cybermen. Tons of ’em. But this episode was different, because the Doctor had to take a backseat, almost, and let the deluded Doctor do his thing, while still working behind the scenes. It was a very funny episode though. And when Jackson said help me, the Doctor said “Two words I never refuse,” which was great. And then Jackson told everyone to thank the Doctor for saving the day, and then the Doctor admitted that his companions broke his heart. So the Cybermen couldn’t ruin the beauty of this episode.

37. Smith and Jones, Season 3
This episode seems to be very simple, and yet the Doctor’s brave, brilliant plan is so clever to watch unfold! I also love watching him take off his tie in front of Martha, and then walk away, because I was so confused the first time.

36. The Fires of Pompeii, Season 4
Amy and the Twelfth Doctor, whaaat? This episode was way important. And not just because it prophecised Rose’s reappearance and the beetle on Donna’s back.

35. The Witch’s Familiar, Season 9
I loved Missy in this and the Magician’s Apprentice, though I’d hated her in Season 8. Of course I didn’t trust her for a moment, even when she appeared to be helping Clara. And leave it to the Doctor to think his greatest enemy actually could be redeemed.

34. The Magician’s Apprentice, Season 9
I still was getting used to Twelve, I still hadn’t recovered from Season 8, and I was still expecting not to enjoy Missy and Clara. But when the Doctor appeared in Ancient Times with an electric guitar, and voluntarily hugged Clara with no prompt, and appeared to be glad to see Missy as well, I was so, so happy and relieved.

33. Nightmare in Silver, Season 7
I know, it’s a Cyberman episode, but what an episode! All I really remember is Matt Smith’s phenomenal acting while playing the Doctor and the Cybermaster in one body, fighting for control of one mind, but it was enough to make me applaud this episode forever.

32. Army of Ghosts, Season 2
I appreciated the Doctor reaching his hand in the TARDIS and purposely pulling out a Jackie to be his companion way more than I should have. I do weep for Torchwood, though. It’s only ever going to be a UNIT wannabee. Did you know it’s an anagram for “Doctor Who,” though? How cool is that??

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31. Voyage of the Damned, Season 4
Record breaking number of Christmas specials, this season. I loved the idea of this story, and I loved how the Doctor befriended and looked out for the people who were abused and made fun of. I would have been fine with Astrid as a companion, too.

30. The Big Bang, Season 5
Hey, we’re down to the top 30! That’s not actually special, but I’m making it special, because the rest of these are episodes I could watch all day, and often do. This one, for instance, is a lovely blend of time travelling confusion, the Doctor dying several times, Amy and Rory finally getting married, the Drunk Giraffe dance, and a fez.

29. New Earth, Season 2
One of my favorite things ever to see acted is character’s in someone else’s body. And this episode delivered, and delivered strong. David Tennant as Cassandra was my favorite thing ever for a while, and Billie Piper was pretty talented at it as well.

28. Partners in Crime, Season 4
Seeing the Doctor and Donna just miss each other so often in the beginning made their big reunion that much funnier. And though the Adipose are disgusting, they’re also cute?

27. Human Nature, Season 3
The actor in me loved watching David Tennant playing the Doctor not being the Doctor. And watching him fall in love. Though sometimes the formality of it all made me want to scream. Points to Thomas Sangster being in this two-parter, as well! That’s ma Ferb!

26. Turn Left, Season 4
The Doctor was barely in this, and yet his absence screamed at us as we see what would have happened had he died the night Donna saved him. That was super cool to watch, and it was also lovely at the end to see him recognize that Donna needed to hug him right then, with no reason why.

25. The Doctor’s Wife, Season 6
Who’d have thought I’d be crying over a time machine? But I did, because she was definitely as alive as anything, and it was beautiful to see she loved the Doctor just as much as he loved her!

24. The Stolen Earth, Season 4
Oh yeah, plot twist after plot twist in this one. And the Doctor’s face when he’s finally reunited with his Rose! Of course then he gets killed by a Dalek, but still…

23. A Good Man Goes to War, Season 6
As if Rory being utterly epic wasn’t enough, we get the Doctor being all delighted around the baby and Amy, and we learn that River is indeed Melody Pond, Amy and Rory’s daughter. Still can’t get over that.

22. Blink, Season 3
After my initial fright of the Weeping Angels, they became my favorite monster. And this episode, with the events happening in the wrong order, and the video message that responded to Sally, and all those clips of the Doctor that we understand somewhat, but baffles the main character here!

21. Doomsday, Season 2
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20. Father’s Day, Season 1
There are parents in everything, but I cry when a parent has a really special bond with their child, such as being willing to jump in front of a car for them, because I love my parents more than anything.

19. The Runaway Bride, Season 3
I thanked Donna for being there to distract the Doctor from his Rose heartbreak. Donna was so different from Rose, and didn’t even want to be with the Doctor, but still needed him to save her. Thank you, Donna, thank you.

18. The Family of Blood, Season 3
Things stop being stiff in this second part of “Human Nature,” and when John Smith is told who he really is, he has a panic attack, as any of us would, and seeing him cope with that is heartwrenching. Which makes the Doctor coming back that much more beautiful.

17. Let’s Kill Hitler, Season 6
Gracious, so many good things in this. The Ponds discovering they named their daugher after their daughter, River meeting the Doctor, Rory telling Hitler to shut up…

16. The Name of the Doctor, Season 7
THE DOCTOR CAN ALWAYS SEE RIVER!!!! That may be my favorite moment between the two. And I LOVED seeing Clara’s visions of all the Doctors. They were both so brave!

15. Journey’s End, Season 4
I think Amy and Rory may be my favorite companions now, but for a while it was Donna. So seeing the Doctor be forced to wipe her memory, drop her off back home, and walk away from her unrecognizing face was as painful to me as to him. Well, close anyway.

14. The Eleventh Hour, Season 5
Not gonna lie, the first time I watched this all I saw were the Converse, because I’d just lost David Tennant and I was trying to holdon to him. But I’ve since re-watched it and seen it for the masterpiece it is as Matt Smith’s first.

13. Vincent and the Doctor, Season 5
Cried so hard during this one, because Vincent was so lonely and depressed! Seeing that he was remembered well helped, but he still killed himself. It was very moving.

12. The Power of Three, Season 7
Seeing as how the Ponds were going to be cruely taken from us in the next episode, I’m glad we had this one, where they could live a normal, safe life for a long while, with the Doctor.

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I love Jenny, and wish she had come back, but I suppose it’s too late now. Maybe she regenerated into Jenny the maid though, and is keeping it secret. Because the way her relationship with the Doctor evolved through this episode was very touching.

10. The Girl in the Fireplace, Season 2
Top 10! Despite what I’ve heard others say, I don’t think the Doctor loved Reinette. I think he greatly respected and admired her, and recognized her as someone who understood him, which is why it hurt him so much to lose her.

9. The Impossible Astronaut, Season 6
Somehow, watching the Doctor have to wholly trust his companions makes him more endearing, to me anyway. And I’m seriously going to use “or hello, as people used to say.”

8. Day of the Moon, Season 6
I had to go back and watch that opening over again before I could watch the rest of the episode, because, his TARDIS was behind him the whole time!

7. The Husbands of River Song, Season 9
This was probably the last episode River will ever appear in, and it was a really great one to go out on. Nearly everything from the Silence in the Library episodes was referenced, and we know she at least got 24 normal years with her real husband before death.

6. The Time of the Doctor, Season 7
Ohh, Matt Smith’s last episode hurt me much more than I was expecting. But again, at least he got a good, long, relatively normal retirement, and at least Clara (and a vision of Amy) was there with him at the end.

5. The Christmas Invasion, Season 2
Must have been disappointing for David Tennant to spend almost his entire first episode unconscious, but I think that made his entrance near the end that much more epic!

4. The Angels Take Manhattan, Season 7
Yowza! Odd how a little episode that hurt me so much made it so high up on this list. That little picnic scene at the beginning is so lovely, and makes the rest of the episode even more painful. But at least the Ponds lived together, and happily ever after.

3. The Day of the Doctor, Season 7
This was the first full episode I watched, which was sort of a mistake, because it would have been nice to just stumble upon it in order. Because it was brilliant, and I basically just need Ten and Eleven to be together all the time. So many references to the past, too!

2. The End of Time Part 1, Season 4
So you can probably guess what number one is. Technically I consider these to be one episode, though. We knew Wilf was amazing up to this point, but these episodes really pounded that into us in case it wasn’t clear.

And, of course…

1. The End of Time Part 2, Season 4
David Tennant’s last appearance (until Day of the Doctor), and Matt Smith’s first. Yay. But I think this episode wrenched the most tears out of me. I was fine when Wilf said he didn’t want the Doctor to die. I was fine when Donna almost remembered. I was fine when the Doctor went around visiting all his friends like he knew he would never see them again. But I lost it when he threw his brown coat over that branchy thing for the last time. I was really mad at Eleven the first time I watched that regeneration, but now I see it, again, as three more beautiful shining seasons ahead of him.

And that’s all of them, would you believe! Thanks (and congrats) for making it all the way!

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Finding Nemo: A Movie Review

Finding Nemo is the story of an overprotective father fish who drives his son to do something stupid dangerous, and the son gets caught by a diver dentist in the process.

No, actually, it’s a really sweet story of a father overcoming anything and everything to find his son, but I just sometimes can have a very twisted view of things!

Anyway, the father, Marlin, faces every kind of fear, befriends a forgetful blue fish named Dory, and never wavers in his quest to search the whole ocean if necessary to find his son. Meanwhile, Nemo befriends the fish in his tank, who all help him come up with a plan to get home before it’s too late.

This movie is Pixar, and so I like it for that reason. And any time we are looking at Sydney, the Tank Gang, or Nigel (hearts!) I love it. It’s just that Marlin. Gets. On. My nerves. Even when trying to be positive, he is annoying. And that’s why when everyone talks about how much they love this movie, I have to admit that it never spoke to me in the way others did. I like Marlin so much more in Finding Dory, but we’re not talking about that movie today.

But it really is a very interesting story, and very cleverly written, making us all cry over a bunch of fish in a way only Pixar can manage. And it was the highest-grossing animated movie for a while there, so there’s that.

I realize that was a horrible review, but sometimes writers dry up a little, and they need to write through the dry periods anyway.

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The Other Side of America

Well.

I didn’t think it would really happen. I thought I’d be staying in Southern California forever. Nothing monumental ever happens to me, and I’m starting to think that it’s because God knows that monumental good things also means monumental bad things, and He knows I wouldn’t be able to handle those.

Not that this is monumental to anybody else. Everyone’s moved at some point in their lives, or traveled somewhere far and distant, or at least far and distant enough to be a culture shock while they were there.

But not me. I spent a week in Hawaii when I was seven, a day in Mexico when I was six, and two summer road trips while under age 2o. Heat is something I’m very much acquainted with. Continue reading “The Other Side of America”

Nothing is for Everyone

Sherlock is back, and that means if you haven’t seen it and intend to, I would stay away from this post until that happens.

Normal is a subjective term. You know why I’ve finally come to that conclusion? Because not even the most normal of instances are met with approval by all seven billion people on this planet. I mean think about it, there are seven billion people, all diverse and unique, with seperate backgrounds and circumstances. It would be abnormal if there was even one thing that we unanimously agree one. But we don’t. Try and name one, go ahead. Eating? Living? Not suffering?

Well, you needn’t go far to find someone who hates eating. Even if you never find anyone else who agrees with me, I’m not particularly fond of it. I would give it up entirely if, you know, it wasn’t sort of vital for my health. And every suicide victim clearly doesn’t love the idea of being alive, so there you go.

Now not suffering…not suffering is a little harder to convince you of. But I do believe that there are even those who feed on pain. Serial killers, and other messed up individuals, you may be thinking. But I argue that you don’t even have to be that extreme. Theater people always cry during tech week; I mean, that’s just mandatory. It’s in their contract to do so, because it’s SO grueling, SO repetitve, SO long and tiring and hunger-inducing. But they wouldn’t give it up for anything, and always come back for more. Continue reading “Nothing is for Everyone”

Tolerance

You know what I really don’t understand? Tolerance. Tolerance is a word with many faces.

Because on the one hand the idea is that everyone accepts everything, so no one gets offended. But I’m offended by homosexuality, and I know quite a lot of people who are offended by theft. What about THOSE needs?

And it’s not even true that people who claim to be tolerant are even tolerant of everything. Because I just said that homosexuality offends me, and I know a lot of people are going to take exception to that. But if you’re accepting of everything, shouldn’t I get to say how I feel? And shouldn’t I allowed to be the Traditional Catholic I am without being persecuted and called exclusive? That’s another thing I don’t understand, because the Catholic faith is supposed to be exclusive, but it doesn’t shut anyone out. Anyone who wants to be a part of it is welcome, and encouraged, for we and the Church were literally made for each other.

But back to tolerance: there’s no way it could work. My argument when this comes up is always that maybe murderers just really like killing people. Should they be allowed to do that, because that’s their belief? Who is to stop them if everything is tolerated? Should people just be allowed to say that those pants really make you look fat, because they feel passionately that it should be said?

Just get some common sense, people. Our society isn’t improving; no matter what kind of side you’re on, the other side is inevitably worse than it used to be.

6 Reasons Why Big Hero 6 is the Best

I love Big Hero 6. I can’t think why, and I certainly didn’t expect to. I mean, it’s a Marvel movie for kids, based on some obscure comic no one has heard of.

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But I’m starting to realize that sometimes I like the smaller, obscure things better than the big things that everybody else likes because they’re supposed to.

To prove my point, here are six reasons why Big Hero 6 simply is the best. The best what? I don’t know, but it’s still the best. There will probably be spoilers, but they’re two years old now, so get over it. Continue reading “6 Reasons Why Big Hero 6 is the Best”

To the Professor

It’s J.R.R.Tolkien’s birthday, everyone!! He would be 125, which is still not as old as Bilbo was. The One Ring website always says to raise a glass and say “to the Professor” to commemorate this occasion, but I don’t know if that’s traditionally what Tolkienites do, or if that’s just something the website thought of.

It’s also my half-birthday, which is super cool, because that means my birthday is his half-birthday.

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Tolkien was a great man, and I’ll respect him forever, and learn all I can about him so I can tell his story, but I’m glad I’ll never have the chance to meet him. I think I would be quite terrified of him.

But since he is dead, here’s what I’ll say if he’s listening: You were the greatest writer the world has ever known, and no one will ever convince me that your talent didn’t come from actually having been to Middle-earth. Your story has inspired millions, and touched the lives of millions more. No one has lived without seeing your influence somewhere, and I myself am influenced by you daily. You helped me through some of the toughest situations in my younger life, were the basis for movies that gave me a reason to keep going, and are currently supporting our household because my mother is teaching an LOTR class as a side project.

This quote has been hanging up on my wall for years, and continues to inspire me to write:

“The chief biographical fact to me is the completion of The Lord of the Rings, which still astonishes me. A notorious beginner of enterprises and non-finisher, partly through lack of time, partly through lack of single-minded concentration, I still wonder how and why I managed to peg away year after year, often under real difficulties, and bring it to a close. I suppose, because from the beginning it began to catch up in its narrative folds visions of things which I have most loved or hated.” – J. R. R. Tolkien

So from the bottom of my heart, and speaking for the millions who won’t think to do this, I can only say thank you, Tolkien. And Happy Birthday.

The Media of 2017

Apparantly 2013 was a great year for movies. I don’t really see it that way. In fact, the only ones I can remember caring about were The Desolation of Smaug, which made me pop veins it was so bad, and Monsters University, which was great, but not as great as I’d hoped.

But 2017…2017 man is the year to watch things. Let’s just do a quick run-down of some of the amazing movies and TV shows that will be coming out in 2017:

1. Beauty and the Beast (March 17)

2017 B&TB.pngI can’t even. I am so excited for this; I don’t think I’ve been so excited since the Hobbit movies. Let’s just hope this is considerably better. That shouldn’t be too hard.

But seriously, have you seen the cast? Emma Watson, Dan Stevens, Luke Evans, Ewan McGregor, Ian McKellen, and Emma Thompson??? I know there are more, but these are the ones I care about.

2. Sherlock Season 4 (January)

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Like duh. Because we all know how I feel about this show. I’m just lucky it’ll be happening the first day of the New Year. 3 more days, 3 more days…it’s gonna be phenomenal. Seriously, go watch this show now if you haven’t. Or even if you have. Continue reading “The Media of 2017”